I'm not sure whether the system is stricter or whether I just got a pdoc who doesn't like meds that much. I'm sure that there will be pdocs somewhere in the UK prescribing off licence, probably at the specialist regional centres or those in private practice. My pdoc is a community psych, then there are hospital psychs (sometimes one pdoc performs both roles), then there are the regional centres with their own specialists.

I'm feeling a bit better about things now, I just needed time to regroup. My biggest worry is work, they are really putting me under pressure wanting a date when I can return to full duties. I suppose I was hoping that tweaking my meds might have done the trick by christmas. Now I'll be telling them that I'll want half a day a week to see the therapist and that will be until Easter or beyond.

I figure the most important thing for me is keeping my anxiety in check and when everything else fails, I have the diazepam for that. I managed 30 minutes of relaxation exercises today and I was almost drifitng into meditation when the dog came and pestered me, she wanted a game. I didn't mind as playing with her is soothing in itself.