Boy, DrSkipper, that's a hard call. But I understand getting attached to someone that you know you shouldn't. My husband would say it a place you just don't go. But with my history, I totally understand where you are coming from. It's hard losing a friend and will be hard to get past the fact you betrayed her. However, it was good judgement to be honest before becoming anymore involved.

I hope you can move on and accept that it has cost you a friend. It will make it hard on your relationship with Christoph, knowing that you are together at the expense of another, but the damage is done. Hang in there and see if time won't help.

I have been in your shoes so there isn't any judgement, only empathy. I've never quite forgiven myself, but I tend to have left over guilt over a lot of things.