Hey, so to start, I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and to be honest I found it receiving.

However I have a problem. I had a bad Manic Episode about a month ago spurred my pyschadellic drugs (I'm completely clean now, I know I have to be). Basically 5 close friends and I took an unnamed pyschadellic drug and it triggered me into a dangerous episode of mania (looking back I was already probably at the start of an episode, but the drugs put me over the edge).

Long story short I ended up getting violent and I'm not a violent person. I don't remember the episode, but these are the details I heard secondhand. Apparenely I started saying that I was a god. After that I throwing objects at people and attacking them. My friends couldn't restrain me or calm me down so they ended up calling the police and apparently I resisted (I didn't get arrested, I'm so grateful for that).

The next day I woke up in a hospital bed completely confused with a good amount of physical injuries. I was quickly discharged. The problem is now all my friends are scared of me and I haven't had any contact with them this past month. It even got out to a couple other close friends, so I haven't had contact with them either. I've apoligized sincerely to each of them individually, but they're still scared.

I've been incredibly lonely this past month because I've had nobody. I'm usually a very social person and my social life is very important to me. I don't get invited to gatherings anymore nonor do my friends talk to me. They ssit it would just take some time, but I think they cut me out. Has anybody gone through something similar or have any advice for my particular situation? Thank you