Hi all.

Lately, my class and another class in my school is having karate lessons during sports class. So during last week during sport lesson, it was really terifying... Everyone was having fun, but not for me... The problem for me is that when my classmates and schoolmates were doing those actions....I can't help but to think of what had happened to me in the past. I had so many unpleasant flashbacks that made me really anxious and that's when I apparently had a panic attack. I'm really scared...In the end, I didn't join in and I sat down and my close classmates saw that I was not in a good state and I sensed that the teacher was unhappy that I didn't participate.

I was told that what we(my class and the other class) were supposed to do next week was some high kicks and etc. That's something even more challenging. So far, only my close friend in class know what's going on. My teachers have no idea about all these and I can't let them know because I feel ashamed and they might think that this reason is just an excuse. (They knew that I'm having counseling but what they don't know is that I have no time for counseling until this coming week's sport class is over.) I know I can tell all this to my counselors, but I'm only going to see one of them after this week's sports class. I can't change the appointment any earlier due to my scedule.

Did anyone faced or is anyone facing a similar issue? I hope to discover ways to cope. Thanks in advance.