I could not sleep last night, and the one time I did, I had disorientating nightmares. All I could think was how I betrayed my best friend and stole her boyfriend and all those times I've had dinner with her family and how her parents will think of me now. My chest feels heavy with guilt and pain. I love Elsa, and Christoph cares for her too. I think we all deserve a chance to be happy, but it hurts so much to do so. I treasure friendships like I treasure my family. I'm extremely loyal and I've done so much for Elsa and I was always there for her when she needed me. This was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. The next hardest thing is to tell my parents that Christoph and I are dating and why. I'm dreading this conversation, but my parents are understanding and hopefully they won't think of me badly.