Yesterday I had an argument with my mom. I said something cruel and I wish I could take it back. I find myself lashing out at people. But usually it's my mom, and I feel terrible about it. For me, lashing out like that is a sign that depression is coming back. I think the only way to explain it is that I'm angry at myself, for not being able to deal with life when so many others manage it so easily. And self-flagellation is difficult to maintain, so I lash out in anger. I have to make this better but I'm not sure how.