I was never at a pdoc until I was 20 I think and that was short term. I stayed away from psychiatrists for about 20 years after that. I have no idea if any of the diagnoses are right. I guess the sz is but I'm not even sure about that. I know something - a lot - is wrong with me but I don't know if I have the right labels. I guess that doesn't matter until I'm trying to find a new doctor or therapist which one day might be nice. But I don't see my life extending much longer. I didn't think I'd live much longer than this last spring.