I was 14 when my parents divorced, it was a long and drawn out fight. I was involved in every way, even financially towards the end. As the oldest of five I had to take care of my siblings when I could, I watched my world be ripped apart, watched my mum cry, saw things falling away. I watched drugs steal my two younger brothers, and I was powerless to stop it. On top of it all, I was bullied something terrible when I was in elementary/middle school, and it caused me to be a very bitter, angry highschooler, devoid of any social skills, and only 2 friends, who they themselves are social butterflies.

I resent my childhood being taken, being forced to take so much responsibility so young, I resent that there are people who have had it worse and are better off than I am, I fear and don't understand women, and disapprove of the general college party mindset, while at the same time, I wish I could be part of it. I'm a social mess, I know that there is no quick fix, but I just want to have a happy life, rather than just live out of spite for those who have it good, and those who've hurt me. I've heard all the maxims, all the quotes, but nothing changes the fact that I'm a misunderstood, angry island in a sea of people born into good fortune. How do I escape, how did you escape?