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Old Nov 30, 2014, 08:16 PM
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Originally Posted by HungrySociety View Post
Hi! First time posting on here, or really even being on here. So hello.

I wanted to know if other people have trouble with working. Or even with just specific types of work. I've had eight jobs in the last four years that I lost within a month. I don't really know what happened. I get this just complete, overwhelming feeling of dread from these jobs. I stumble through it, forget everything I'm learning, and frustrate coworkers. Then, between shifts, I just cry. Constantly. It's basically a depression trigger. I've worked food, retail, childcare, reception...

I've only had two jobs that worked. One was a temporary job at a day camp, preparing snacks and supervising the kids for long enough for the teacher to have a break. The other is working for the paper at my college, which doesn't sound like much, but I put 30 or so hours a week into it. I interview, I write, I do page designs, and next semester I'll be selling advertising. It's a job, it's just not a paying one.

My question is, I guess, does anyone else have specific types of work that they can do, and others they can't? I'm not sure whether it has more to do with my BP or my anxiety, but I don't know anyone else with either, so I thought I'd ask.
You are singing my song, hon. I was a nurse who lost several jobs due to my mental health problems. As I've aged my bipolar has gotten worse and my ability to work has gone with it. At my last job, I overreached so badly that I lasted less than four months. It was humiliating. I ran through my 26 weeks worth of unemployment benefits and am now broke and near-homeless. I've applied for disability, but as I'm sure you know it takes a long time to get a hearing and often an applicant is denied the first time.

I feel for you, I really do. I know what it's like to dread going to work and having the anxiety eat at you until you can't stand it anymore. I hope your outcome is better than mine.
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DX: Bipolar 1
Anxiety
Tardive dyskinesia
Mild cognitive impairment

RX:
Celexa 20 mg
Gabapentin 1200 mg
Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM
Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN
Lamictal 500 mg
Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression)
Trazodone 150 mg
Zyprexa 7.5 mg

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