T blog day 65....read it every day. He and I emailed over the holiday. I initiated contact. Had a dream about him. Broke down in tears today. Because I could hear his voice in my memory. I listen to sessions I recorded with him. Just cant let him go. Im worried about obsession over him. Think if my new t was there for me between sessions. I might start to unattach from ex T. But he wont offer that as he doesn't want to encourage dependency.

The blog will end in four months upon his return. What then?
I honestly dont know what to expect from our relationship. To go from weekly contact to daily blogs then to little contact at all. Feel like a ping-pong. And I am doing all this to myself. He is in my head constantly. Dont know what to do.