Thanks for replying.

I've tried not to take all the biblical stuff in because I haven't read it in context but my mother has always said that women are basically second to men in everything (which is what made me look it up). However, the human sucking in general I actually read in Genesis (as far as i've gotten, KJV) and it said the Lord regretted making us and I mean, we're really not any better than the humans then.

I was at the store the other day and people were like cussing about some others walking slowly in front of them. And at work, (i work at a hospital) people are so cruel and unsympathetic to the patients and they do test you but people don't even TRY to be kind anymore. I am no better than them, because just as they have flaws in that area I have flaws in areas of my own.

I try to "be the change I wish to see" but all I hear is "oh teal, you're so sweet/nice/caring yada yada" - what I don't see is change.

What I really want to do is stop crying. I want to know that everything is going to be okay. I don't want to be this sad mess. I'm trying to remain hopeful but days like this, its so so hard.