I'm not sure what you mean about negative energy. It's not like I tackle the guy. All I'm saying is that I experience transference when I see someone who reminds me of my T. It's something that goes on internally... My posts about my T may include anger towards him... but that only proves that we have a very significant relationship. I am not understanding why you would say that my posts about him are not positive.

I never feel guilty about transference. Whether it is towards my T, towards a stranger, whatever... One thing my T has taught me is that I never have to feel guilty about something that is facillitated by my unconscious.