Yeah...and unless I would get something that helps me out of the 'volunteering' then I would see no point in doing it, unless I have some reason I really want to do it regardless of personal benefit or not.

Also think what you want I am not here to prove anything to you...I already spent plenty of time trying to run away and deny the fact that my mental conditions, really do significantly interfere with my ability to function due to people such as yourself essentially telling me I'm just not 'trying hard enough' so of course I did not want to accept I might have severe enough mental problems to be considered disabled.....why so people can accuse me of just being lazy, not actually being 'that' disabled and being a burden to society? But turns out my concerns of stigma where over-ruled by necessity of needing to do something to help myself and that thing was proper diagnoses and SSI. If you don't think I am disabled good for you, has no bearing on the reality of my situation though.

As can be seen here the concerns about stigma where certainly not unfounded, but just something I will have to do my best to cope with as I don't have the option to work currently. Might never be in a position to hold a job...stigma certainly does not help the problems I have and its not likely to go away apparently.