I wouldn't describe myself as a depressive. From how I understand it (please note I'm statistically very likely to be wrong as usual) someone who is depressed loses there ability to see joy and value in life, has a low sense of self worth, and doesn't enjoy things they used to due to disinterest. However I see joy and value in human life and believe both have intrinsic worth, I'm just failing to utilize it properly leading to despair. I don't have a low perception of myself, I'm just a realist. I don't enjoy my hobbies not because I see no point in doing them anymore or because they don't hold my interest, but rather because everything I like doing everyone else does better than me. I fail to see the value in doing something when it's going to be of repulsive quality and I'm never going to be as good at it as everyone else is. I don't know what you'd call that but that is how I feel.