Hey so I have this thing where I live inside of different fantasy worlds inside my mind. I can't recall specifically when it started happening but I have been doing it for 10 years now. It used to be something I did after school and it was always because of music. I would put on headphones and go off into a fantasy where I am sitting in class at school and a guy comes in and recognizes me he has a magical ability or something where he can show events kinda like a projector I guess he shows my classmates who I "really am". When it first started I was usually a famous musician and whatever music I was listening to was actually my song then it became Athlete then got weird to where I was demon or angel or even an alien. More recently it has been everything from president or Prime minister to dictator (though usually benevolent). A few years ago it started happening to where I didn't need the music and I didn't do it on purpose I just stayed in fantasy mode. Now I am constantly in it even doing something else like talking to someone I am mentally not there and I can't seem to stop it. Also it has gotten to where its no longer in a classroom setting I just have fantasies about someone else being around me mostly a girl Is in bed with me cuddling sleeping next to one another or it could be a good friend who I am just having a good conversation with the friend I never had I guess. Is there any way to stop this? It seems kinda all consuming now. There are benefits I guess when I'm angry I usually put on my headphones and disappear become something else. It used to help me when I was feeling suicidal and it seemed to help a little with my depression but it doesn't help those anymore. This is actually my first time ever talking about about this I know its weird. I read that in AVPD people sometimes create a fantasy world.