Thanks so much to everyone for their responses! It makes me feel so much better to hear that it's not just me thinking he's wrong for the way he's acting towards me. It's hard to see it when your entire family really isn't doing anything about it =/ The only person who ever really backs me up is my mother and honestly it doesn't make me feel any better to get her involved because it just upsets her and no one really helps her any with it because everyone is so afraid to start fighting with each other again.

The entire family is hanging together by what feels like a string because we're forced to keep up this facade all for my grandmother, who I can never believe will actually sit there and be perfectly content knowing we're secretly loathing every minute of being in the same room.

I'm aiming towards Jelly-Bean's suggestion at this point honestly, because I feel like it's the healthiest for me. My plan after school was to move out to LA, CA because that's where my career path would have taken me anyway. Honestly...I was hoping it would be my greatest excuse not to show up to family holiday's anymore, to tell everyone I was stuck out in CA doing work or something. I've been living for that dream since I was in high school...but honestly I love my mother way too much to just get up and leave her here by herself with the dogs.

If only I had the heart to go through with that Mimsies!! Nothing would make me happier than to get back at him like that, but I don't think I have the energy. I'm clinically diagnosed with major depression and co-dependency and my self esteem has always been absolute rock bottom, not to mention I can never seem to not let someone's cruel words bother me. If only insurance wasn't so rough for therapy right now. Apparently there's a $1,000 down payment to go anywhere right now and we're struggling with money enough as it is. Christmas at my house probably won't go past $40 gifts or cards.