i cancel all the time
i go in and out of T
like mnths with no contact

i cancel cos im scared what i will find out
ive already been diagnosed with some frightening things
and being told to take meds
when i dont want to really take them
being ill scares me and going to T makes that more real
i dont want there to be a problem
so ignoring mite help
maybe for two seconds..lol

im scared to relive what got me to this place
im embarressed about my past my fault or not it still happened to me and im ashamed of it

there are so many reasons
but one thing is for sure
the only way to get better in my case at least is to go to T
get it done
the longer i leave it the harder it gets

((sunny))