Hi VMblue, I'm really sorry that happened to you after you managed to open up after all that time. And I know it must have been a massive step for you to do that
But I can assure you that I honestly haven't ever seen anyone opening up about their feelings on here being treated the way you were by those people.
Your feelings absolutely DO matter, and there will be people on here who do want to know, who understand, who care, and want to be there............and it can make a difference in having that sort of support.
None of the way you're feeling is a disappointment on here, and how can you be weak and pathetic when you've shown so much strength in opening up about the way you're feeling??!!!! Respect!!!!!!
So............there will be people IRL who are going to be feeling the same way towards you if you can find/link in with more of them (and you'll get some advise on here where to go) but for now if you feel more comfortable talking on here, and it is a safe place, then please feel able to tell us as much as you want/need to.............whether that's about what happened years ago, the effects, the way you feel right now..........whatever you want to tell us, because it does matter, you matter!!!!

Alison