Hi Subliminal, you know I think I can get why you don't think you can succeed in life, right now............everything is seeming like it would be/is so much effort and pointless, feeling like it's falling apart/going to fall apart anyway, and maybe you're thinking why put yourself through trying anyway???? But you're feeling that way with depression, right??
So just imagine that the depression wasn't there (really hard I know, but............) now wouldn't your ability in succeeding be so different??? And I'm not even talking on a "materialistic" level there either. So if you had some real useful coping skills..........the depression was a lot easier..................
So don't let the depression take those possibilities away from you hey, what right does it have to do that, when you could have a completely different way of living than the one you're foreseeing with depression???!!!
And in that I'm not just saying "think yourself out of it" OK, I know it can be a lot harder than that but what about carrying on in reaching out for all the support you can get, hey??
So.........anyone you can be talking to about the way you're feeling (a bit more?), any (more?) professional help you can get??? Although we're here for you too...........
Alison