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I think all the overtime is getting to me. I think all my responsibilities are getting to me. I need a slower pace and more support. I need help with housework and household organization. I have been considering a nanny which would be the same cost as daycare. So far dh doesn't see the benefits of a nanny over daycare for our three school age children, but I do because I would get help with housework.

I wish I could take a day off and just stay home in bed and vegetate. I have passed our sick day limit at work (been off for too many sick days) and am waiting to get called in by my Manager. So far that's never happened to me, even though I have passed the limit for 2-3 years in a row. The Manager has "discretion" (it's a unionized environment)... fortunately I think my strong work ethic, years of experience, expertise and productivity make me a top player. Still it's unsettling to think I may get hauled in for a discussion... sigh. I am trying not to take any more sick days for the rest of the year but it's getting to be very challenging. I need to take it one day at a time.

A couple of days this week I will not be working overtime because of commitments with the children. That will help with a sense of a break and rest, I think. Thank goodness.

I want to get tattoed. I am bored and unsettled. I need to finish my half sleeve. Today dh begged me not to get any more work done... not right now... he wants to get a new computer system. LOL Priorities!