I will NEVER get to work with Sara and Joanna again, so that's that. I won't be getting a new key worker either, as I don't really trust these support people any longer and they all move on at some stage anyway, but it was all cruel. They constantly act like I can just get a new set of workers because in their view, the help matters more than the helpers and while that argument raises fair points, it's a matter of one's personality befitting your comfort zone. In other words, if they feel you will get attached to one person, they remove him / her and just expect you to not care.

I'm that hurt by what has gone on, I feel my confidence won't be coming back. I suffer anxiety too, especially in social settings and around people in general, something I never had over a decade ago. I was not always like this, but I think the panic attack I had in 2009 changed me. And they were kind of like my whole life (the caregivers) and so losing them has dealt a nasty blow.