So I didn't have to go into the urgent mental health clinic because I called ahead for an appointment and they said they don't take walk-ins and their next appointment isn't until the 15th. Well, my new pdoc appointment is on the 11th, so I didn't schedule anything. Finally broke down and called my GP, and she refilled my sleep meds and Xanax for a week until I get to see my new pdoc. I feel somewhat relieved that my meds are taken care of and I will be able to sleep.

I SI'd this morning, but not to my face, but I haven't SI'd since then. I'm hoping that this morning was the last time. It's really hard because it's not something I want to do. I don't want to be like this, but I just don't have control sometimes.

I'm hoping the new pdoc can help me adjust meds when I see him next week. I'm really hopeful that we can get this thing sorted out and hopefully help me feel better and more like myself again.

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