The last few days, I've had a few moments when I was wanting to cut. I usually try to tell myself that I'm fine and that I'm just trying to get attention. I've felt a little numb combined with a bit of self-loathing. Again, I usually try to just make believe everything is OK. So I'm going to try to change my usual pattern and admit I'm not OK and that something is up. I'll text my therapist and honestly try to check what I'm feeling and what's going on with me right now.