Thanks Linden, I'm glad you're feeling better . I'm going to hope along with you that it is a more permanent change and not a fleeting feeling of relief.

Yeah, closure emails , I know them. I wrote my loved one several closure messages too, only to find myself writing another afterwards where I apologize for the previous message and basically ask her just to say something. I would send a message which says I understand how she feels and I promise never to bother her again, only to send her another to say I love her and care about her and I ask her just to tell me if she got the previous one or not. She never did respond , except for deleting her things online so I could no longer contact her - that hurt . It still hurts.