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Originally Posted by PaulaS
I had a partly similar experience as you when my T terminated me. You really donīt need to feel like a baby, many people who attend therapy have attachment and abandonment issues which you easily get reminded about in this kind of situation.
I really understand itīs very hard loosing a T because of such a reason as you describe but one thing you could perhaps be a bit grateful about is that she does send you to another T. I was terminated but also "put on the street", that is I now have to search for a new T all by myself.
I had a similar comment from my T, that I shouldnīt explore and analyse too much what went on in therapy. But thatīs just who I am and perhaps who you are as well, you canīt "turn off your brain" to fit into therapy.
Even if itīs hard I would think about the situation out of the perspective that the current T in a way doesnīt allow you to progress or not progress in your own pace and therefore itīs better with another T. You still have all those feelings for her, I now mean within the therapeutic relationship, and I still cry and mourn over loosing my T.
But those feelings and an effective therapy is two different things I think, but still they have to go together, that is even if you have positive feelings the T also have to be competent enough to deal with your problems.
The thing I see, which I also saw in my own therapy is a kind of non proffessionality when it comes to that the T creates this bond with you, gives you several sessions and then terminates you. That of course triggers abandonment issues on a much larger scale than if she had realised she couldnīt work with you much sooner, before you got too attached to her.
As you feel you really want to continue with your current T I would bring the issue up once again to ensure myself about that it really depends upon her skills and nothing else. I say this because I was recommended another therapy form when terminated but Iīm almost sure my termination had to do with the fact that my T took things personally and that she wanted clients that so to speak "followed her lead" all the time.

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Oh my gosh Im so sorry you were put out to the streets left to find a new t on your own, that must of been hard. Everything you say is exactly right though. My T does EMDR and so I just wasn't getting there fast enough, wasn't ready. But I had her for 4 months, did a mini group with her to try and learn grounding techniques... God, I tink I love her... Not 'in love'... Just love. Funny, because sometimes I am so confused about love... Ugh. This is so hard. I did leave her a message on Sunday (may as well continue pushing those boundaries as she put it since I won't see her anymore) saying maybe I was self sabatoging (because in our last session she said we ended up feeding the bad side and increasing my defences) because I was scared to get into trauma work and then proceeded to say I was ready now and begged her to give me another chance and not transfer me :/ :/ Good God, maybe she is just sick of me... I would be sick of me.