So, after I talked to T on the phone yesterday, I sent her a long email about all the stuff I wanted to say but couldn't. Just talking on the phone was hard and sharing how much I'd been struggling was feeling impossible, so I danced around it on the phone.

I got a reply back from T this morning, saying she thinks we should increase the frequency of sessions until I'm feeling better and wanted me to come in either today or tomorrow. I see her regularly on Thursdays. So, I told her I could come in today, but I kinda don't want to. I mean, I know I probably NEED to, but I just feel like my problems are that bad (yes, I know they really are). Last time I was feeling this way - over the summer - T didn't suggest more frequent sessions. Of course, I don't think I was quite as straight forward with her as to how I was feeling, and we were both traveling a lot during the summer, so more frequent sessions probably would have been difficult anyway.

I'm going to the appointment today, I'm just not sure I want to or will be willing to talk about what's going on. My T is awesome, it's totally my issue that I feel like I can't connect right now.