i have dealt with three suicides so far in my life and a friend's boyfriend just took his life recently too.

it is one of the hardest things to deal with. it has been the hardest in my life. as a person with a diagnosis, my feelings around it are more confusing and deeper than an average person's would be, i think.

not sure, but the guilt has been almost ever-present for years now.

thank you for this post, i will check out the link.