I struggle with indirect communication in my relationship. My g/f tells me she loves me, im one in a million and she is passionate about me; however, her actions are different. She is distant and when I try to rough house, fool around or be passionate her actions tell me she is not interested. She kisses than pulls away or pushes away. This makes me feel insecure and awkward. It makes me feel like im doing something wrong and im not good enough. This has interfered with our relationship and my ability to communicate. Especially because im dealing with my own insecurity, anxiety and "adult child" like issues myself. I feel like I don't matter, and she smokes a lot of weed and I don't like it when she is high, I believe it takes away from the intellectual interaction. She has now been diagnosed with auto-immune disease and instead of talking or accepting anything she has seemed to become more distant. I know I have my issues and Im preparing to go talk to a therapist, but whenever her and I try to talk things out she don't communicate. She just shrugs her shoulders and tells me im freaking myself out. I dunno what to do or how to communicate with her.