I am EDNOS, so basically bulimic with restricting tendancies, I am just out of a 5 month long binge/purge and now I am so scared of food, I usually just eat salads or spinach and water smoothies...

But the thing is, I have a 2 year old. And he is such a picky eater and I know this is mostly my fault. I wasn't very good at helping him experiment with foods, especially for the past 5 months, because I was in straight binge mode, which to me, is peanut butter toast every night and then a pile of junk food (I hate admitting that). So my sons favorite food is now a huge trigger food for me.

I try and get him to eat things like chicken breast but he seems to only want to eat crap like chicken nuggets and usual kid friendly stuff... Not ED friendly foods...

I get such bad anxiety thinkng about meal time for him... What I can make that he will actually eat and not trigger me into a binge... Which would result in purging... Ugh. It's so frustrating. And then I get depressed at how I have contributed to his horrible eating habits... He wasn't even two and recognized the packaging of cookies or what not for mummy's night time binge. Ack. Now I have to correct a picky eater when I don't even like cooking for myself.

F*#$ I hate food.