*******Contains a little bit of content of sexual abuse history*******






I am getting ready to go to my gastro intestinal doctor appt here. And I am a bit scared because of what tests he may order for the coming weeks. I have been sexually abused in my past as a child by my brother . So having anything go down my throat or in my hind end is a huge trigger for me. I will have to be heavily sedated to do this. This scares me because I have no control over the situation. It makes me just feel sick and panicy. And I hate having to explain to every new doctor that I go to about my situation if its needed. I wish I didnt have to do this.