Dear Apathy, you could be just unwinding although it has been so long, it seems like you are comfortable that it seems like retirement, but you said it is too early for retiring from the world.
My friend started doing temporary work to see if they could cope with the world or if revealed any underlying conflicts.
What about a life coach.

If you want to explore a book about what you might do in life, there is a book by Gregg Levoy called CALLINGS that tells people's stories that hit roadblocks.

There are many forums to explore here. Thanks for posting on PC.