Thank you for the encouragement. He is not as helpless as I sometimes think. He'll be okay for a few days, while I stay home.

I don't think it is all about him. I think I am depressed for a few reasons, some of which are not about him.

I don't have a doctor I trust. I would be afraid to tell my doctor that I am depressed because that might cause him to discontinue my pain med, which is Vicodin. He changes my meds suddenly and unexpectedly. I'm getting to hate going to see him, which I do every 3 months. I tell myself that there is nothing any doctor can do for me. I've tried all different meds and only one helps which I am taking for many years. So I say there is no point to talking to a doctor about my state of mind.