I'm sorry if this brings up more sadness, but out of curiosity, how long has it been for you since you've last spoken to her?

I thought about my ex so much more today than I did yesterday, and I think the pain is seeping back in again. I'm still okay, managed to complete most of my stuff without getting too distracted by thoughts of her or the pain, but not as okay as yesterday. She hasn't replied (yeah...I know, I'm reminding myself over and over that the email I wrote wasn't meant to be replied, but...ugh) or come online (and again, yeah.. I couldn't help but stalk her again...). This time, though, it feels like pure heartache than me being upset about losing control over her, so I guess that's improvement...or, I'm not sure. Oh well..

Glad you've improved. Good job!!