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Originally Posted by CANDC
Dear Apathy, you could be just unwinding although it has been so long, it seems like you are comfortable that it seems like retirement, but you said it is too early for retiring from the world.
My friend started doing temporary work to see if they could cope with the world or if revealed any underlying conflicts.
What about a life coach.
If you want to explore a book about what you might do in life, there is a book by Gregg Levoy called CALLINGS that tells people's stories that hit roadblocks.
There are many forums to explore here. Thanks for posting on PC.
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Dear CANDC,
Thanks for your reply and recommendations.
I can cope with the world. As I say, I have interviews and do "well".
When I say I am picky, I am not saying I am looking for my dream job. I just don't want any job that would lead me to a cycle of unhappiness or low-pay. Looking for a full-time job takes a lot of time and effort as well.
I pretty much know the kind of job I would love and I had some interviews. But it is competitive.
I believe that at 30 I just want some direction in my life.
In my 20s I pushed myself to some "extreme" experiences (I am quite introverted). I went to the US to do a master's degree (in New England
) and then went to SE Asia for 2 years to work. I liked the experiences but I always had this call of home. So landing a job in Paris (although it is not my country, it is culturally and geographically close; it is like being from New Hampshire and living in New York, not a big deal) felt so good.
A month ago I just contacted some people in SE Asia that I knew from there and I was even offered a job which was very interesting honestly. But I of all of a sudden experienced bad sleep and stress about thinking to move there again! I just don't want... what afterwards?. When I have had interviews in Europe it just felt "good". Maybe that is the "Posttraumatic stress"
So I think I know what I want: a job in Europe (where I feel "at home") and the kind of job I want. I can picture myself in that.
But I wonder sometimes if I am too narrow-minded and that is what is pushing me to en cloister myself.
Hard to tell.