I have told her a million times I tell her everytime she does it that I don't like it. She says that she tries to be more affectionate because my grandmother wasn't with her and I understand I'm not trying to be mean or anything. Its not like I just don't like it it is the fact that my body goes cold and gets tense at any physical interaction. Maybe it is because I'm paranoid and hypervigilant I am suspicious of everyone's motives who knows. I'm not proud of it or anything I'm quite ashamed by it I wish I could hug family members especially my grandmother with all her health problems but its just the reaction I get every time.