Last winter and spring I was in a spot where I was very seriously suicidal. I had given up all hope and didn't believe anything would work. After all I had been trying everything for twenty years. In my mind there was no point in even trying. Somehow when I am in those spots I at least manage not to miss appointments with psychiatrists and therapists. So there must be some hope in there somewhere even if I don't realize it.

So my doc said well lets try this new one called Fetzima. I said yeah ok whatever. Well it has worked better than any med ever so far. Same one Gaylegg is on. It hasn't been perfect. I have had ups and downs, but nothing severe. I don't know how long it will keep working as they tend to poop out on me. But I had the best summer I have had in many years. Now is always the absolute worse time of year for me and I am doing ok.

The point is we can't ever give up. We have to keep trying whatever might work. Don't give up hope. Things will change.