I'm doing okay. The session was very difficult for me; I wasn't sure I wanted to be there.

T said she was very concerned that I didn't contact her over the weekend when I was struggling so much. I tried to explain why I didn't, but she just kept saying I should have contacted her. It raised questions for me that I couldn't ask yesterday, but I will in our session tomorrow.

T gave me a lot of things to think about, which is both helpful and oh so frustrating!!!

She thanked me for coming in even though I wasn't sure I wanted to. Her reasoning for the extra session was both that I didn't want to/wasn't able to talk on the phone and that I didn't contact her, so she felt like we needed to connect in person. She was right, connecting in person did help some. I'm just feeling conflicted about my relationship with T right now.