I'm not experiencing pain anymore during attempted penetration. It just will literally not go in. And I think he was able to go in further in the beginning when it DID hurt.

He's had this issue with someone before and they just had sex all the time for a week. We don't live together and we don't see each other enough to have sex everyday and I'd be afraid to have sex that often because no matter how much birth control we use, that's a huge pregnancy risk. I mean, would we have to keep up that pace? Neither one of us would be able to get any work done and then when I get pregnant (because I will at that pace no matter what) I'll have to drop out of the doctoral program I'm in and just get some minimum wage job (if I'm even qualified for that). While I have to give up all of my dreams and hobbies, he can continue to live the same life with the same goals because he's a man and men can continue to do everything they did before they have kids. Basically, he'll get his doctorate and have a wonderful life while I spend my days working at terrible jobs that have nothing to do with my advanced education.

If we could just keep to once a week or something…I guess if it doesn't hurt, it doesn't matter that much if he can't penetrate me. He always gets off anyway because he's a guy and it's so easy for him. I mean, it's always over really quickly anyway, so it shouldn't be a big deal. I just wish I could really enjoy sex like it seems other people do. Maybe everyone's just faking it...