i stayed at my moms house last night and was having extremely bad anxiety. it was so bad i threw up.

ive been having *Sui* thoughts too. some here have said its because im mourning. but i was having extreme *Sui* thoughts and self harm actions before all these events happened.

also more events are happening with me. so you all know about my aunt right. well yea. but now i learned my grandma (on my other side of my family) is being kicked out of her house. shes 85 i think or 87. somewhere close to that. so one of my cousins grandma died (who isnt related to me by blood) and it scared my grandma because they were about the same age and shes staying with one of my aunts now.