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Old Dec 03, 2014, 01:55 PM
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I am about to go to therapy for this same issue: Guilt! I hurt so bad inside, and I always feel like everything is my fault. I am headed nowhere and the dreams I once had are gone and unattainable. I'm terrified to go to therapy, I don't know how I am going to open up and I am unsure as to if it is going to work; however, I feel determined, I want to believe it is going to work. I hope this helps me and maybe this is something you could try, start believing its going to work, you have to believe in order for anything to work.

Start journaling, writing down all these things and exactly how they make you feel. EXACTLY. If your mind is cussing out a situation and your angry than journal your anger. If you want to say F this person cause they F-in hurt me, than journal it exactly how you're thinking and feeling.

Also, buy the book "Healing the Shame that Binds You," by John Bradshaw. This book made me realize that I need help and that I have a long road to recovery but its possible. I ran across this book at Hastings when I was in one of my shamefully depressing moods and finding this book was a blessing.

Just understand you are not alone, there are many of us just like you out there. We just need to start believing we can change, and taking the proper steps to confront the anger, hurt and pain and deal with it properly. It takes time, this I'm starting to understand, and change is possible.

Good luck.
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