Thank you, The Skeezyks. I want to believe that there is something bigger and greater than us, than this world, so I want to beleive in life after death, but I have to confess I'm not really sure about it. I decided to believe that because of the many people I lost and I miss. I want to see them again, that's all.
I have been thinking that in fact what I should do is just to stop fighting these feelings and instead embace them and let them teach me what I need to know for the future. There is nothing to do about the past, so maybe it's time to learn from pain. But more important, I think I need to fully realize that my choices were mine, that I always had the opportunity to do something different. Maybe my mistake until now was trying to blame it all on to traumas. No, it doesn't matter what I suffered, I always had the call to let it ruin me or make me a better person. So, if it was my call, nobody owes me a thing except myself. I'm responsible for what I do with this guilt. I hope I'm not wrong now!
Thank you again. Good luck to you too!!!
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