My heart is very sad for you, iwish I frequently have episodes of depression, but 'knock on wood' they haven't lasted for more than a couple days. Do you enjoy animals? Many people find comfort in something as simple as feeding wild birds or foster care of dogs/cats from a shelter.

I agree *most of the time, infact * with Azul and think especially in your position meds are worth trying. Please keep us posted, I hate to think of how much you're suffering