I can relate a lot to feeling that way with family, The Grey Wolf. I've struggled a lot with my impulses (to run or strike) since early-teens. I am still this way, 30 years later. I can be affectionate with romantic relationships, but I struggled with that for 20 years. I am just recently beginning to be romantically open, but it's still work.

My difficulty stems from family abuse in my childhood and teen years though...