you have an abusive mom. and it sounds as if she's in severe need of psychiatric help. we are a product of our environment.

what you did online was very wrong. it is never okay to fool/play with people that way. BUT, you weren't an adult and you stopped. i'd look at it much differently if you were grown and decided to play gun and games with people's heads. you were desperate for attention and then you stopped. good for you!

if you can find a counselor to talk to IRL, i'd suggest that. or a trusted relative. your mom is playing games with your head.

work at school and then off to college..where you can be your own boss and make your decisions. good luck, oxoxoxo pat