I'm an alcoholic who quit drinking long before I knew I was bipolar. It's been almost 23 years but I still remember the high I went on when I first stopped. Everything was possible, I could do all kinds of things, nothing bad would ever happen, etc. It was harder when I got a few months into sobriety and started really craving the booze and realizing I could never have it again. Believe me, you have my sympathies!