hello my heart goes out to you...boy do I know what your going thru!! But I prevailed up to now ....tomorrows another day. I had my first ever panic attack Dec 8 and from there I had the feeling of dread..like something was going to happen. I went to my doc and she simply told me I had an anxiety disorder. Oh great thats's why my mind was racing my body was having all sorts of physical symptoms, heart palpitations, tingling, buzzzing constantly feeling the hair standing up behind my neck. Then she gave me an antidepressant I was terrified to take that, she had previously gave me Ativan which I took as needed because it can be addicting..but it helped during those times I really needed something. I hated taking pills especially ones that work on your brain..I was scared but at that time I really couldn't do it on my own.

I had to change my whole lifestyle...excercise, yoga, no coffee, alchohol, took lots of vitamins and my antidepressant...I feel a whole lot better and my doc says 9months of Zoloft and as long as I feel better I can go off them.......so 4 months to go because she says this is very treatable and I never want to go back there again. God bless and hope your feeling better, this forum really helped me to know that I wasn't alone