So.... life.

My therapist is squishy, very, very, squishy. I talked myself into then out of IP. I really don't think he'll be able to handle when things are tough for us. He refused to let me call my thoughts normal so the new word is frequent. I think the only reason I'm typing this at home is I'm charismatic, and I assured him I'll take my meds until next appointment. I detracted him from the risk assessment which I think he'll do every week. If he can't handle me "normal" then I think I'll end up over medicated and constantly in acute care. My husbands therapist is Squishy too. I'm scared that my son's therapist is to squishy for him because he "conveniently" forgot to mention he's hearing think and having racing thoughts. I really hope she picked up on it or my therapist says something to her. I already feel over medicated. I hope my pdoc isn't squishy. My husband's T already said to him that I deal with a lot.

squishy= easily un nerved, easily concerned .....


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Forgot to mention we talked about whether or not I'm a good parent. How I am not responsible for his actions even if it's genetic. My lack of attachment to him and how apathetic I am.