I hope you guys don't mind me posting here, even though I've been hanging out in the schiz forum the past several months. I still love you guys!

I just got back from seeing my therapist today. She thinks I might not have bipolar. She thinks I might not even have ADD. She thinks I just have a "sensitive personality" and that is why my life is hell. I think she might think that I have some low-level form of BPD, which breaks my heart. I was so worried that I was borderline for years, but every professional I've seen until today has assured me that I don't, that I definitely was bipolar. I guess they were all wrong. I have nothing against people with personality disorders, I just can't take that kind of prejudice and stigma. I really, really, really do not want to have a personality disorder, even a subclinical one.

I almost started crying in the session, and I never cry in front of people. I just feel so worthless. So I don't have MI...I'm just a loser who has never had a lover, who has extreme social difficulties, and who cannot, for the life of her, get above the class average on an exam.

I just feel like I shouldn't exist if I'm this worthless and broken. There is nothing wrong with me biologically. I have a defective personality, and that is why I can't get my life together.