Whenever I have a session, I have so many things I want to say, so many emotions I feel, but they're all buried deep and somehow I can never access them in session. When I'm on my own, I have no trouble feeling sad or even crying, but in front of T, I just can never muster it. It's just unnatural for me to be vulnerable in front of other people, so it's hard to do, even though I know it will feel really good once I get past that. But (broken record alert), I am also scared of it feeling good, because that will lead to attachment feelings, and attachment feelings are bad.

I guess I'm just feeling lonely tonight and that's why I wanted to post this...I know it's just the same old, same old...the loneliness is really overwhelming sometimes.