Hi Shy Introvert

That is alright. I undertstand what it is like to feel depressed and after Jackie passed away there were days where I didn’t want to do anything except literally curl up in a ball and die because I felt like **** and blamed myself but you need to be strong and try to fight it because if you don’t it will ultimately take over your life and believe me when I say it is not worth it. One thing I found that helped me was music and whether it was writing songs, playing music or just listening to music it took my mind off a lot of the problems I was facing back then and helped me focus on the positive things in my life and I couldn’t imagine what my life would be like without it or where I would be. I don’t know if it will help you but perhaps you might consider learning how to play a musical instrument because music can be a great way to express yourself.

People that put other people down to make them feel good about themselves are the ugliest people in the world and you should try not to let them get to you because they are not worth your time and the chances are they are suffering from some very deep issues themselves that they are desperately trying to hide out of fear of how other people will see them. I have met a number of people over the years that have been like that and one of them was a guy I went to high school with that bullied boys he thought were gay and he was actually gay himself. Nobody is perfect and the people that claim to be are always fakes and you are better than them because you don’t hide who you are and you don’t put down other people who are different than you. True confidence is being able to be ‘you’ – flaws, scares and all and not worrying about what other people think about you.

I am sorry to hear your Mother favours your sister over you. I have heard of some parents doing that and my Wife and I love our daughters equally and we don’t have a favourite because I think it’s cruel and it can cause a lot of problems for children later in their lives. It sucks having horrible parents and when I was little I used to go over Jackie’s house some days and I would see her Mum and Dad and it was like being in the twilight zone because they were so kind and caring and nothing like mine and in a way I was jealous because I wished that I had parents like that but I had my older sister (Kathy) and and she was always there for me and basically raised me like her son. She never put me down for my disabilities and she always taught me to believe in myself and my talents and she is very proud of me

Your sister might be “so happy go lucky confident and strong unlike you” and you might be opposites but that is what makes you, ‘you’ and from what I can tell about you so far you are kind, have a good sense of humour and you are strong just coming on here and writing about your life even if you have days where you have a hard time functioning. Those are good qualities you should be proud of and if your sister really loved you she would not be ashamed of you. If you don’t mind me saying here your sister sounds mean and she should support you more.